What does God do for you?  I don't mean that literally.  How could I?  I mean, what does your belief in God do for you?  I have moments where I wish I still believed, but honestly I'm much more comforted by the fact that I don't.  I feel I'm more prepared for what is coming at the end.  Not having some fancy story about the afterlife makes it the last great adventure.  I may never get to travel to other planets.  It's almost 100% certain.  However, I will someday die. In that moment, the greatest mystery that has ever faced Man will be known to me: What does come after death?

I don't want to die.  I love life.  I want to see my children grow and dream and achieve.  I want to meet my grandchildren.  I want to know that the people I love are going to be happy.  That they will find people to love.  However I also want to see where my energy goes when my body stops.  Not "see" with eyes obviously, but I do hope that I will be aware of my physical passing.  That I will be aware of what happens afterward in a way at least slightly similar to how I am aware of everyday life.  I know it's coming, and I hope it's quite a ways off, but I am absolutely fascinated.  Admittedly, I am a bit afraid, but that fear mostly seems to increase my fascination.  I want to know.  I don't want to believe.  I want to know.